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Beware: Geeky

Now that we are in the place, I have almost nothing to do. I’m not a fan of half the shows on tv, I use to like House and NCIS but that was all the truck stops played. I don’t get the pregnant teen shows. Kids having kids isn’t glamorous, its irresponsible!

The boredom is going to drive me insane! The only “friend” I have won’ waste gas to visit now that Master and I are away frome one another. But going to the same city for a munch we could have went to is ok. She doesn’t have to say all that, its the fact that she says nothing that makes my point. So, going out is a big fat No; for now. Until I find someone else to talk to.

I’m still shy about the extra cost but perhaps getting a computer ar Aarons would have been smart. The only thing was our bills were increasing as it was. I was worried the 100+ dollars would hurt us more than help. I know it doesn’t seem like much for most of you but the only bill we have had for almost a year was the phone. Now we have the phone, rent, electric and furnature.

Now I think we might be able to handle it. But we will see. I’d really like to play Sims again. Have my mother ship the ones I have there. Make the family tree as complex as I wanted before. Yes it is geeky of me to say that but I love Sims. Its the type of game I find addicting. I like the Business and Pets expansion packs the most. Even the basic one is still complex.


Depression and procrastination

I have such a stress induced headache. Have had it for a while. It doesn’t exactly help that the
Guy I’m with is a major procrastinator. Our phone bill is due soon and its a big one. The first ones
Always are. We have the money now yet he decides to go buy things from Walmart instead.
Even though he knows what the stress does to me. Not like he cares but a girl can dream….

If you haven’t figured it out yet I’ll tell you now. For the last two-three months I have been
miserable. Why? Because the man I fell in love with tricked me into his life with pretty words
And false sense of how things were going to be.

We have very little if anything in common anymore. Half the time I ignore what he says because
I just heard the conversation last week! And the other half is about sports, which I hate! Not two
Seconds ago he blew up because I turned down the radio. I use to cry when he yelled because
I cared when he got mad… I don’t cry anymore because I don’t care. Its an everyday occurance to
Be yelled at for one thing or another. Lately its because my view on life is wrong, his words.

We have zero communication! On my part its because I know he will just tell me my idea or
thought or even feelings are stupid or wrong. In my eyes its a waste of time to get him to see any
-ones view or ideas then his own.. When I try to talk with him about things he gets defensive or
Angry. He doesn’t even try to see things from my perspective..

Yesterday I got kind of depressed.. Ok so no kind of about it. I was way down in the dumps and he
didn’t even try to help he just kept pointing out the things that way in the first place..

I guess what I’m saying is I haven’t felt so alone in a long time.. I have no one to talk to. Even if I did
I don’t have any privacy to do that…

We’re going down hill fast and I can’t stop it….. Do I even want to?