Posts Tagged ‘ blogs ’

Good Blogs and Bad Ones

I have been looking for websites or books to help me get back into the mind set that is needed to do what I do. Most sites I’ve found are just what that particular sub thinks/does. I’ve even talked to the only other slave that I’m in contact with. She was more concerned with what type of control I wanted then proceeded to tell me it wasn’t possible because we were slaves to truckers?! So she was NO help what-so-ever. (I need more submissive contacts) All I’ve been searching for is a way to become a better slave but it seems people are more worried about where others are at now and not where they want to go in the future.. I was getting so frustrated I was about to give up. I literally stumbled on this site and its exactly what I have been looking for. Its the Submissive Guide blog. Basically a cumulative of different slaves giving helpful posts to those who read it. There are posts on rituals, discipline and many other topics. The one about getting into the right mind set by ritual helped a lot. There was only one problem with her advice.. I am in a truck and have limited space and time in the mornings. I can’t take an hour and a half for a morning routine. I wish there was some kind of self help site for a truckers girl. Most things girls do in a house or even only an apartment have way more room then I do so I can’t clean or do yoga. However I can meditate but even that’s a bit difficult with Master listening to talk shows. Once we get the po box I will be able to order some S/m books. That itself will immensely help.
I’m still looking for the morning ritual that works best for me.. When I find it you will know.

The blog that I have been reading to get my “fix” has sadly become less and less appealing. I’m not entirely sure why. You would think her posts would be even more invigorating since she is back with her Master, but they are getting less details and being posted irregularly. I get why she isn’t writing as much as often because she is with her Master and therefore has to devote her time to him instead of her blog.. Even the ones that do have graphic detail don’t really interest me anymore. Maybe its because I am now living the life I have always hoped to live and am now making my own experiences. Either way I think I’m done being one of her avid readers. Its sad in a way but extremely invigorating to! My life is looking up and our relationship is blooming.

Last night Master told me that tonight I would be getting another spanking. Apparently he waits three days when there is bruising so its not to painful but the blood is still at the surface. I’m going to have to trust him on this one. Its a good exercise on trust. I’m still hesitant about that. I trust him with my life, I just have a hard time trusting him when he’s holding a candle above my flesh! Van you blame me?? I’m working on that as well as everything else… Man do I have a ways to go!

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Details people!

My morning routine has been disturbed! For months now I have been waking up to daily posts by Sephani, but now that she is in the UK with her Master (congrats to her) she isn’t posting as often. And she’s skimping on details!! *gripes*
Yes, I am purely being selfish about this because when Master and I were off their relationship helped me through. I lived vicariously through her experiences. I guess now that Master is being Himself again I don’t really need her blog. I’m actually living the life that I’ve wanted. Sadly my damn period is still here but afterwards I’m hoping we pick up right where we left off on the physical.

I cope so much better in my duties as a slave and dealing with my severe mood swings if I have a healthy dose of pain right before bed. I guess I need that constant reminder exactly who and what I am. If I am left to figure everything out on my own, I know I will fail! That is exactly what happened the last time around and I turned into a huge uncontrollable bitch. I HATED who and what I had become, but I know it is going to take a long time to erase all of that in order to mold me into what I SHOULD be. A devoted obedient slave with rebellious tendencies. *smiles*

I’ve started meditating again to try and calm my moods. It use to help when I was living with my mother and her mother. (yes my mother is a leach attached to my grandmothers hip) that house was full of tension and anger. This house isn’t as bad, by a long shot, but he knows how to push my buttons just so. Like just now. I cut my nails without asking (how stupid is that) and He gave me a hard time about it. And right now He’s being kind of annoying. So now would be a good time for meditating!

A new blog and new beginning?

I’m sorry everyone for the cloak-and-dagger routine. I wish it wouldn’t have been necessary. As I said on the other blog, my hand was forced in changing sites. I had been thinking about doing this very thing, just with ample opportunity for you to find and/or locate this one. But the person that was just giving my hard work to strangers that didn’t really care, was threatening to post my link on her home page. That my friends is very unacceptable!

The girl who Master had previously collared has turned into a raving bitch! At every opportunity she was trying to make Master mad. I get the whole “Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned” thing, but come on! It was a computer program! It wasn’t like she was owned by Him in real life. Once un-collared she should have just left it alone. Just like W/we tried to do. But enough of her…

Master and I are doing good. We are in Texas right now and the heat is unbearable. He has the AC on full blast and I am still sweating my rump off. We have a load going to the “bottom” of Texas as Master puts it. It is just going to get hotter and hotter the further south we go. We have been drinking more Gatorade and water in the last three days then the last three weeks. It’s insane how hot it gets down here!

Tomorrow Master has set up a “Dinner date” with a friend of His and his wife. I am extremely nervous about meeting these people because of the last time I was supposed to meet His family. That was such a disaster. Master has assured me that they are nothing like the evil beings that claim to be His family. I am trying to draw strength from His positive attitude and personal strength. When it comes to this I am trusting Master to be my rock and my shoulder if need be. I just have a hard time trusting people in general. My life, even though short in numbers, has taught me to watch my back. Threats can come from any source. I’m just glad Master got through that shell.

We are going through Houston Texas right now, so I have to go help navigate.