Posts Tagged ‘ growth ’

Growing in my place

I have been browsing along two websites looking for new gear and toys. Our toy collection is still really bare, but now that we have the space and storage that might change. I found a couple of good quality floggers and a bamboo cane that hopefuly (crosses fingers) will leave plenty of marks on my hard-to-mark tushy.

There was also a sensory deprivation hood that I am drooling over! Its black leather and has a gas mask/pump that I would breath through. The cool thing is Master can control how well I can breath. So many fantacies would be answered with just that piece. There is extra padding around the ears, eyes and mouth. Its not quite sound proof but it muffles the noise so I wouldn’t know where Master was or what He was saying.

I’ve dreamt about having Master control everything in a scene for a while but sufice it to say, a pillow or His hand isn’t extreme enough now. Our play has evolved from the beginner level to the more advanced toys and play.

My limits aren’t the same as they were a year ago. I want to have my body and face completely inclosed. I want to be Master’s foot stool or any other piece of furnature He chooses for me. I will do what ever He wishes of me. Although the cumming on my face still creaps me out. So that is still a big fat No!

This step in our dynamic is long in coming but now that it is here I feel excitement and nervousness all in one ball. I guess that is natural, to be a little nervous of the unknown?

At least thats how I’m going to see it. It is my blog after all 🙂


New year new me?

Today has been wonderful. We have been in a Hotel on our home time for the last two days and we’re staying again tonight. *Does the happy dance* We woke up and went to breakfast. It was very yummy and filling. Not as good as Floyd’s though. Oh, yeah ya’ll aren’t from Corpus Christi… Floyd’s Restaurant is a little christian based Dinner that has some of the BEST breakfast around! Their Biscuits are as big as your fist balled up and oh so good! *Mouth waters* Master loves the cobbler there. I, however, being a new patron to Floyd’s haven’t had the cobbler yet. Honestly though, cobbler not my fave. But I’m willing to give it a go.

While eating Master had a great idea to take in our tub-o-change that weighs a tun! So we walked over to Wally-world and dumped the change into the coin counter and waited for the ticket to be spit out. I was really surprised it was as little as it was. I was expected so much more for that kind of weight. It was only around $47. Now we know what that tub will hold. Except its empty and we need change… (*eyes everyone’s pockets* Put it in! Even the pennies!)

Today I have been doing a lot of shifting around on here. I have been doing some thinking over the course of last month.. And have decided not to use Our real names. If Masters or my family ever found out about this side of us, it would be very bad. For Him more than myself. His children already don’t agree with His choice in Girlfriend (which is all I am to them) then you add-on the S/m to it, they would never speak to Him again. I couldn’t bare it if I or my blog was the cause of that. So from this day on I will be blogging under the name Aurora. You can find me on Facebook as Aurora Dawn. But be careful there are a lot of them. I don’t really know why. I guess there’s a lot of all names… Anyway. The reason I picked this particular name is because I am absolutely in love with Greek Mythology. Kind of a geek about it. (No snickering!!) And I just love this name/Goddess. She is the Goddess of the Dawn. Which is perfect because ya know, the dawn is (to me) one of the most beautiful times of day. When everything wakes up and starts to scurry around. The sun rising over the slumbering hills. The mist glistening. *Sighs wistfully*Just gorgeous!

And to tie into that I have changed my email. I will no longer be using the old one and have changed it to! Kind of fitting, no? So if you ever need to ask a question you don’t want to do publicly then just hop on over to your email and type away! I check it regularly and will reply asap! Plus if you are a subscriber I will be sending out group emails to update everyone on any changes taking place..

I’ve been just a busy Bee haven’t I??

The only thing I keep thinking is… Since all of this, does that mean I’m a new person? I use to not care who found this blog. Or what they thought. I still don’t take any stock, good or bad, in the opinions of others. I know that sounds horrible. But if you don’t like me or my writings, then why read them or comment anyway? I’m not going to let anyone’s bad opinion ruin my love of blogging or S/m. Now, however, I do care who finds this… I don’t want to be the cause of ruining anything between families. Plus there are a few people on certain sites that hate Master and I for reasons only known to them.

I guess in certain aspects I have changed the basis of who I am though out the last year. I like to think for the good.


(photo by Anne Geddes )