Posts Tagged ‘ needs ’

Micromanaged

“Are you micromanaged? Do you find you flourish best in a micromanaged environment? Why or why not?”

Right now because of the truck and small space my Master can’t exactly pull over and punish me if I do something wrong. It’s just not an option right now. When we get the apartment and move it will be much easier for Him. He will just have to grab my hair or collar and correct me. *Shivers with excitement*

From keepandshare.com

I find that if I have a set daily routine or schedule I flourish better. When I know what I can and can’t do it makes it easier for me to concentrate on my submission and grow as His slave. I guess it takes the pressure off of my shoulders if I know what exactly I am doing for that day. I like spontaneity as much as the next girl but not quite all the time. In the bedroom or in a scene, hell yes! In my rules? Nope.

It also makes me feel secure and wanted. If my Master takes time out of His busy day to create a daily routine for me, it is just another way to show me that He is committed to my success as His slut. He has created a tool with His own hands to help me do that. You have no idea how that feels. It’s like a warm blanket of love, ownership, control and reassurance wrapped around you to keep you safe and happy.

It’s  not something for every slave, but for this one? It is definitely up there on the I-Want-and-Need list!

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Cycles

Ok so I slipped up. I know I said I wouldn’t write about bad topics but it needed to be done. Instead of not talking about bad things at all, lets just keep it to a realistic minimum, yeah?

Good moving on.

Once again Master and I talked about needs and the lack of attention mine are getting. He tried to pass it off as His prerogative what needs get met and who’s don’t. Until I pointed out the truth. That none of my needs are being met.

So here we are. Back at the beginning of our cycle. You know the one where I break down, force Him to talk about problems, He says things will change and everything will be great until it starts over? Yep that one! While we talked I started to doodle and it turned into a weird-looking house thing.

Today however, I was looking at Fetlife and there are a couple of good groups that I want to join that I think will help Master and I right now and in the future. One is “How to balance Vanilla and kinky” and the other is “24/7 for real”. By just looking at the topics I know they are a wealth of information with people who go through the same ordeals. At least that is my hope.

I want to create a post about needs or the difference between a want and a need but I don’t know when I will have the time. I’d like to put real pictures on it but the phones totally suck for that. I’m a perfectionist.