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HNT: 4/21/2011



The Deviant mind of my Master never fails to amaze me! He used my invention against me.


Extreme Revelations

Last night was absolutely amazing! It started with a declaration and resolution from Master. When I told Him how I felt about the very little kink in our life and I thought it was a bit lacking, He really thought about things. He asked me what I wanted for myself and from Him. I, of course, was at this point brutally honest by stating, I want a Sadistic Master not a Boyfriend/Husband.

I was told that He would be testing me. He would find out just what I want and need; How much I can take and how much He can give! It could be a process that lasts a week to several months. I just had to mention that I’ve heart a variation of this before and like all the other times I wasn’t expecting it to last. I’m lucky He gets and understands my reservations, because I have heard all this (or a form there of) before. I’m not saying it will fail, because the first week or two are great. All but perfect. I’m just saying its a greater probability/possibility it won’t last past that.

Master and I had one of our best scenes yet! Nothing to sexual as in no one orgasmed.. But I was thoroughly abused. The sides of my tits are nothing but bruises. I’m sore in places I forgot I had. I teared up but He didn’t stop. He took my breath away quite literally. He had me on all fours forcing me to suck His cock while He smacked my ass and back. I was even reprimanded at one point! 🙂 I have to say it feels wonderful that He is back on.

For once I can’t wait until tomorrow!

I’m exhausted so to bed I go.. Snuggles! *Squeels!*

Reconnecting on Christmas

Yesterday wasn’t a conventional Christmas even to those into kink. There was no tree or flashy lights. No caroling or festivities. It was just a Master and His slut enjoying each others company. There was a lot of laughing and talking. In light of the New Year I kept asking a lot of hard questions designed to get into His head! I want the New Year to be even better than this year. I don’t want our relationship to grow stale; Instead I want to constantly expand and grow in ways we thought were impossible.

One of our conversations was about that. How to improve, what we want for us out of the life we lead. I think we came to the perfect middle ground. Well, realized what our goal was. One of many anyway.

In our opinion, no one can be completely “on” all the time. Yes, you are always a submissive or slave. However you can’t act docile or subservient all day every day. You have to sleep, shower, eat and so on. With us we joke around and start tickle was a lot. And I do mean a lot! It takes the pressures of the day away from our dynamic so when we are “on” there is no outside interference. Just us, in the moment reveling in the power exchange that takes us places wonderful and unknown.

Yesterday was the perfect example of that. We joked around but at the end of the day when it was time to get serious, we were who the “title” describes.

We had our first scene/play time in weeks last night. It was simple in design but oh so wonderful! The sensations were intense. I finally felt centered. My mind (if done right) will go blank during the onslaught of sensations. I forgot my safe word twice last night. I didn’t answer a question properly and was goaded until I did. It was perfect! The only grr! moment was when He stopped because of my tears. Even though in hindsight that was exactly the right thing to do.

The experience made me feel reconnected with my submission. It brought me closer to Master. And showed me He loves me still. Maybe more than He did when we met. I know I feel more strongly for Him now than I ever thought possible when we met!

Rewarded for a good job

Our 34hr restart is over and we have another load going to Houston. Right now we are working our way south so we can be on our home time Sunday to relax. Plus so He can watch nascar… I know its important so I wont bitch.. much! Apparently, this last race is really important and will decide the champion. I’m just glad it will be over soon.

Yesterday Master got a pair of really nice boots. Real leather with a rubber non-slip soul. They should last a good long while. When we got back to the yard I sealed and polished them. That was kind of fun, I guess I have a nack for it. He was very pleased. *Beams* They look super good on Him to. Doing the polishing for Him made me feel more like a slave than any other chore could possibly do. It made me think about things while my hands were busy. That’s a very good thing for me.

I was rewarded with some breast spanking for my job well done! It was out of the blue in the sense I didn’t think it would happen much less like that. I was standing there topless waiting to get into bed when He started to tweak and fondle them. Those led to pinches and slaps! Big ouchies.. He slapped them so hard my body kept trying to buckle in on itself. He wouldn’t let me though so my knee decided to come up after every painful slap. (which was every single one!) I had a really hard time holding still. He might have to tie me down next time. I am sporting two really nice bruises on the sides of my breasts. 🙂 I was really happy to finally see bruises on my body that He put there… Not the random accidental ones you wake up with!


Today has been a really good day. We are hopefully done with Wal-mart blitz loads. Right now we are working our way home with one that delivers to a store.

Master and I had a couple of great talks while He was driving. We also talked about His past by a lake next to a rest area. I had a few questions and it seemed like the right time to ask. He is very “ask the right questions and you’ll get the right answer” kind of guy about the subject of His past. (I wont mention details about past, present or future talks about His past…EVER) Then we talked about us and the life we led. I asked a couple of questions (as always curious me does) about His version of a perfect scene.. Lets just say it involves double-headed dildos, a cat o’nine tails whip, gag, blindfold and a bucket-o-water! Let your imagination soar, I know mine did. 🙂

Right now we are parked, fed and happily relaxing. Master is reading an excellent book called The chamber of Ten. It was a great book, I finished it in less than ten hours! I’m still reading The lord of the ring trilogy. I’m on book two still. I’m not exactly loving them. But I will see how they end. I’m obligated to.

Everything but the kitchen sink

The last two weeks have been hell! All we have been doing are those Wal-Mart blitz loads. From Dallas to Houston and back. We had one that went to Mississippi then back to Dallas we came. Really easy money, sure but man is it boring. The only reason it’s so great is their guaranteed 545 miles a day. You do that all week and it adds up. Just this week we’ve done over 3,000 miles. Crazy huh!

Sadly that bit of I-45 is an internet wasteland. I can’t post a damn thing until the computer shows. It’s ok though. Writing in my paper journal until then works just as well. It stinks due to horrid timing though. My blog was just getting some good number of views per day. I’m sure I will get them back though.. Maybe even plus some! *Muahahaha*

As it turns out the new tag  for my collar was the culprit that caused my rash. If it was the new pillow/case it would have got worse over the last two days of sleeping on it. Master and I are going to have to find a better tag for that purpose. I was really excited about getting the first tag out of the three we want. We’ll get one I’m sure. I just don’t know where since I can’t do cheap metals. Silly me, I should have thought of that before the rash! OOPS 🙂

Master got a new outfit and coat. All of it is going to look good on Him. I’m slowly steering Him away from just jeans. And adding a bit of color. I’m really glad He got something for Him this time. I hate being the only one getting things. I’ve always been that way. We also got 3 CD’s. We are slowly building our CD collection. Very slowly! *Laughs*

My curse should be over just in time to get the Motel in Corpus. We will be able to play after all. I was really worried about that. I’m in such a mood to take what I can get. I wish it was over now! I cotta find a way to do ouchies while the curse is still in town. But how I’m not sure. But I will find a way!

We just got back from IHop a little while ago. It was really good. Masters dinner/breakfast looked really gross. But I didn’t have to eat it so I’m happy.

Seriously though, at this exact moment I am blissful. Even though I haven’t had ouchies for a while I can feel where I’m suppose to be. Even if it’s just a little fainter.

So with that feeling I’m going to beddy-by land!